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her liveliness ^^ Besides, she also impresses ppl with her elegance, same as what told by my friend, simple but very attractive.

Today i saw a girl, where by looking at whom, gives me a very special feeling. The feeling was quite similar to that when i looked at my ex last time. Somehow, i feel that she resembles my ex, in term of dunno what, cant tell, but definitely not the face. I couldnt concentrate on any conversation at all juz bcoz she was around and that was probably the second time i saw her only. So i ended up standing at a corner watching her, despite being spotted. She is pretty but not very pretty, everything else about her seemed to be so ordinary, yet she appeared so attractive to me, weird. And what’s worse, i would even feel jealous!!! Gosh… What the hell is wrong… This is the first time i am behaving so strangely, to a girl whose name i don’t even know. Maybe she just reminds me of my ex, that’s all.

人生好像一场戏，

因为有缘才相遇，

不应小事而生气，

回头想想又何必。

Interpretation:

Life is like a play,

Destiny brings us together,

Shouldnt get angry of little things,

Think back and you will realize you shouldn’t.

Beauticianist said my forehead pimples were caused by stress and lack of sleep. I am still experiencing insomia and lack of sleep. This means that i am not as stressed as i was, which is a good thing ^^ . The only problem now is my body clock. Still working hard on it. Pimples are gone, but more time needed b4 the scars are completely gone. Bad. Just be patient, like in every other thing. The time will come^^

Tmr will be my first day working. Studies are getting tougher and tougher. Time is running so short. Everything comes in a sudden. No, not really, it doesnt come unplanned. hehe.

I calculated. My earnings plus some of the money i have in my bank account now will earn me my living cost if i put them all in West Bank, which is going to give a nomial interest of 9% compounded monthly. And hopefully i can earn the fees for one semester so that i am STANDING ON MY LEGS, since apparently there was better ppl who deserved the scholarship

AND MY PLAN COMES IN EXECUTION FINALLY!!!

Breakfast —> Steak + milk + fruits

Brunch     —-> fruit + milk

Lunch      —–> HUGE amount of spaghetti with beef balls + milk

Interval ——-> fruit + milk

dinner    ——> normal

Supper   ——-> same as lunch

heeee heeee heee… hopefully this works ^^ Might be increasing protein intake… see first lar… hehe.

It feels so good to feel like this. For the first time in my life i am living in such a way that the very first thing i see when i wake up in the morning is hope; and the very last thing b4 falling off to slumberland is also hope, another hope—what’s tmr gonna be?

Actuarial studies, so broad, so uncertain. You cant even be certain if you would end up being an authorised actuary. This is it. This is the challenging feeling surging up and down in my heart, knocking my way through. If you have got a function, as in f(x), you get a result simply by substituting a variable. If you have got nothing without limitation, it’s up to you how far things can be stretched, either infinity, or negative infinity. Hehe.

To all my frens who care,

So so so sorry, didnt really have the time to really chat with you guys on msn. Was busy doing many things since the very day i touched down. This is juz to inform you ppl that i am doing good here. Quit alcohol, picking up tennis and playing a few of other sports, and most importantly studying hard^^.

Oh, I am also busy looking for job, attending lectures, doing research on resume and cover letter, and searching for INVESTMENT BANKING internship in SINGAPORE^^. Hehe. AND MOST MOST MOST IMPORTANTLY, MISSING U GUYS SO MUCH!!! haha.. so touching… sob sob…

Hmmm… might be going to hong kong with my fren who is staying in hong kong in this coming June. Might be taking part in the Australian Chess Open. Might be running elections for MSO(Malaysian Society Organisation) because many internships require the proof of good leadership.

EHHHHH… DUN GET A GIRLFREN SO FAST PLZ… coz i am most probably not getting another one in the coming 3.5 years until i have my Master done, and i duwan to survive Valentine’s Days alone  plz plz plz plz plz… If the UNEXPECTED happened, i will inform you ppl. haha.

K, will update this blog from time to time no matter how busy i am =D

Time flies…

I feel sad to leave this time. Maybe it’s becoz i am leaving for a longer time, and might not come back to Malaysia in my coming holidays because i will be trying really really hard to apply to Singapore companies for internship.

My friends are all trying to apply to NUS. I hope they all get the offers from NUS so that we can gather in Singapore. Ganbatte ah guys!!! I will try my very best to do my internship in Sg also!!! hehe…

I am more confident in my studies this time, because i know i won’t be wasting as much time as previously did missing her this time. It wasn’t a regret to me anymore breaking up the relationship, because we will eventually break up even if we didn’t that time.  This is because i am not doing any other courses but actuarial studies in Australia. Leave it to God lar… Focus will all be on studies because…MONEY MONEY MONEY MONEY MONEY… haha

Equation: MONEY = DREAMS COME REAL + THINGS-OTHER-THAN-DREAMS COME REAL

To come back to Malaysia or not if we get to "escape" from here??? All my friends have already made their choices, which are uniformly NO. Because we all realized what is our country most probably going to be in the future. Wake up lar governments!!! Only perfect competition leads to improvements!!! Especially when our precious oil is finishing —> GG.

"Successful people think of ideas, unsuccessful people think of excuses." by Khai Wei —> will always be in my mind(might make a tattoo or what.. HAHAHAHAHA)

Happy Chinese New Year!!! May everybody be blessed with all the happiness in the world!!! Wish all my friends all the best in their studies!!!( ahha… sorry for stealing ur line… u know who u are… ahha) If i had 500k, i would use it to fund my dear cousin’s studies. But, i don’t have, so the only thing i can do now is to wish him all the best and all the luck to be accepted by NUS. Khai Wei, plz do study hard, as how u pleged, as how u vowed ur success coming in 10 years time =D Hereby, not here in my blog, HERE DEEP DOWN IN MY HEART, i wish you what is not to be wished but to be worked out by YOURSELF, all the best and longing to witness ur attainment 10 years later. Hehe. YL ah YL, study harder ….

AND, JL, God has undeniably been unfair to you. HE has been too good to you!!! Think of it =D

I am going back to Aussie on the 22nd of Feb. So much i had in the past three months here. So much i had with my friends. Thanks a lot. Mixed feelings i am having. Sad because once again, i am going to leave everybody here. Happy because i am one step closer to my dreams.

After breaking up for almost a year, i have finally learned how to let go… release is bliss.. haha.. Let go doesnt mean cease loving =( But nvm, the cycle will keep going until it comes to the correct end. I wish her all the best in her life lah… hehe…

Successful ppl think of ideas, unsuccessful ppl think of excuses. This was what i learned from Khai Wei. I want to be a successful person and so, i started employing this ever since the first day i heard of it. =D

A friend of mine once said i would be the least person on earth to feel lonely. I would say yes b4 i broke up with my ex, and NO after that. Somehow, i feel so lonely all the time ever since our break-up. This loneliness might strike at anytime, when i am watching a movie, or when i am playing dota, or when i am driving, or when i am hanging out with friends…. juz anytime, unexplainably. Luckily i have discovered a very effective countering way.. ahha.. Think of the broader picture. This says all. =)

New semester coming. And i am ready for it, although feeling a bit scared of the more challenging courses i am taking. I CAN BCOZ THERE’S NOTHING I CANT!!! hehe.

All the best lah ppl!!!